Anyway, aside from crypticisms, I bought another blank notebook (I can see 15 other, older, equally blank ones lying around, from where I'm sitting), my brain just went 24 hour AWOL. Doctors, veehickles, pictures, people who weren't there, phone calls I missed due to hospital-induced silent phone mode, money, coffee, chicken, candles, bullshit, reading old things and already being able to see the horrific smoking crater that would be left if that particular bomb ever goes off. Some good plans been made though. That's what my mind says today was. I doubt this will make sense to me in a week or two. Not sure it does now.